Fuck it

I wanted an image
I changed,
opened up and took risks
Doing things I hadn't
and never sure I would

My image is what I imagined now

Taking shots,
pounding them back

Sarcasm and promiscuous

They love it

Is it just growing up?

I have fun...
or have I given up the little girl still in me?

Being burned over and over...
 you learn how to put out the fire before it starts

To play the game...to win before they even
knew a game was starting
Before they had a chance to set up the play

Let down the wall,
and each time it's an "I told you so"

I do what I do
Act this way
Say these things

I say fuck it and put that look on my face...
then everyone knows I'm not trippin

I've gotten so good at my cover that
it's what people know me for
Laughing while explaining the pain,
drinking through the tears

Fuck it

Trying to control all the insanity within
me that tried to take me over
with the tears and
days I can't face full of
the anger I swallow down

My attitude is my control,
the only control I've had in these situations

The race of my heart,
steals my breath
and puts me in the dark