let the music play

they say i'll be okay

i wish i believed those words

words like strength and beauty

that i can do this

cause right now i feel so weak

tears are fighting me

i don't want another daylight hidden away

nothing else seems right 

waiting for tonight

needing to get past the midnight hour

with the showers of self medication

the only time i don't feel

the time when breathing becomes easier and harder at the same time

fun, lifted to another reality

and another day i can say i made it,

no victory by any means, but another sunrise counts for something

to some

to some my outside image masks this pain

back in the day that was my goal

tuesday 1 life 0

ha 

if only i had thought this through

successfully creating my character that doesn't give a fuck

it's easier on the front, but deep down it only fuels the fire

the fire to my soul that burns deeper 

burning 
adding to the self inflicted wounds that turn to scars 
telling my story

scars hidden away, along with the reasons why i am the way i am

how that successful happy optimistic girl turned into a dark broken bitch behind the black curtains

engulfed in the physical mess, underneath the warmth i can disappear into

lifted again, thinking too much

let the music blast into my ears

words inspiring these words

another lost dreamer trying to shine the hope back in 

lifted

inspiration

breathing slowing down, closing down

made it past the midnight hour,

done with the showers

words inspring these words

let the music play...