Goosebumps

I hate

and I’m becoming bitter

and I’m being this bitch I never imagined

that I dreamed about

and I play this keyboard like a piano

this is my music

these words are my everything

this pain is my melody

you’re gonna love it

I want a standing ovation

I’m being so vulnerable

If I could sing this, you would feel the chills

goosebumps

If I could sing and reach you with notes, instead of hit you with the honesty of my words

maybe the world would understand

music is so universal

it starts out as just words

just like this

just like me

i just wanna be heard

and heard

and understood

I don’t give a fuck if you agree

just react

get over yourself

how some have treated me

abadoned me

let me go

judged me

took advantage

fuck

i’m at a breaking point

and the only person that will hear me

that will feel the pain that i need to let out

is me

my skin

my blood oozes for all you bitches

for all of you who are heartless, that just assumed you knew who i was

and took my smile through the bull shit as strength
strength that you had the nerve to say "inspired" you

strength that was proof that you could do whatever the fuck you felt like
another advantage you had on me
strength that meant you could remain the selfish, ignorant human that you will always be

and i would be ok

well you were wrong

you’re killing me

i’m killing me

this blade could kill me

another sip could kill me

and i wish i cared

cause my life is so promising

right?

cause i’m just at the beginning

right?

goosebumps

you feel them now?