Let the games begin!

Waking up with just enough time too look fine,
without looking like I really tried...
After all,
natural beauty and laughter is all the craze

Stay true to you and your heart will be amazed

Catching an eye,
flashing a smile,
allowing a laugh,
making time to hang...

I'd be wanted,
appreciated,
maybe even adored

It became a routine,
better yet a game I knew I would always win
thinking time after time, he wouldn't be the same

Let the games begin!

I do what I feel I should,
what I feel I need to prove myself

Your arms wrapped around me,
your bare chest against mine,
our deep breaths,
racing hearts,
different intentions,
separate hopes

Intensity
Shame
Gain

All this enclosed in this dark room,
in a bed that has held many hopeful hearts before my own

Laying in the filth of your repeated words,
repeated lies
Somehow I remain thinking I'll be the one that gets to stay

I do what I know is wanted,
what's expected,
searching for that release, that comfort
his hands, the substitutes for what I'm lacking,
grazing my lands of womanhood
certain steps increasing my heart rate--turning up the heat

Your limbs pressure the right spots,
and gracefully break through the loneliness that is tight and too painful for me to keep living through

My excitement excites you
and while not losing it all we bond to the fullest,
the fullest we can without getting lost in the "one night," and the temptation of the darkness...

I give this,
I give this each time

Giving and giving then waiting

Waiting

Hoping

Each new boy
new lips
same lines
same end

it all leaves me empty

Empty, as I lose a bit of myself with each bit of hope lost
with each "good-bye" exchanged
with each new pair or eyes and whispers passing that assume they got me figured out,
thanks to the new set of rumors that start to ensure an ego is never bruised...

Empty