I look at the sweetest father daughter picture
that exists
My brown eyes matching yours,
kills me to see you every time I catch my reflection
You never escape my mind
and that only gives the fears their nutrients to grow
Full grown fears
I brought them up with me
My babies
My strange sense of comfort,
thanking them every few months when
these tears fall and these shakes exit my body
Constant birthdays...
No wonder these fears became so strong in the blink of an eye
The strength I front is constantly overpowered
Nothing settles within me,
even when things are calm
Always I corrupt what's innocent and untouched
Always complicating,
bringing the pain in with each breath
Looking at the sweetest father daughter picture that never had the chance to grow
Looking at the saddest father daughter picture that does exist
Your brown eyes matching mine covered up by the darkness of shades
Shading out what's bloodshot, withdrawaling and deprived
The admiration gone from your brown eyed girl
Full grown, while you're diminishing
Diminishing along with my sanity....
Fears full grown
